Sunday, May 30, 2010

Barn Sour...

Hello all! Yes, I am barn sour. Not sure if I'm near 100% yet, but I'm getting there. I am really sick of sitting around though, but seriously that's all that my body has allowed me to do. This round was the toughest by far. Eek. Thankfully there is only ONE MORE TO GO!! You have no idea how excited that makes me and how it is helping me to get thru this one!!

Let's see, since Thursday (when I got my shot) I left the house for the first time today. Get ready...it was a big trip and a long one too. Totally kidding...I went down the street to Taco Bell to get food. Ok, I know probably not the healthiest meal in the world, but during treatment when I'm resting I do things that make me happy, I mean I should right? Taco Bell sounded good and it got me out of the house for the first time since Thursday. Whew! Even though it was a short trip, it felt good to see other human beings...ha.

Speaking of other human beings, my Mom, Aunt and Aimee all came over on Friday night and we played games and had girl time. It was good fun. We decided we should continue this post chemo! I love my family and friends.

Like I said, this round hasn't been fun. Is it because there is no more cancer in my body and the chemo is killing all my good cells? I've been wobbly, super weak, lethargic, energy less, you name it, but thankfully I haven't been praying over the porcelain God. It definitely could be worse. Sleep? Well, last night was the best night. I have taken naps here and there, went to bed early, went to bed late....it doesn't matter, my body is weird and if I sleep, I sleep. Thankfully I've had all the time in the world to catch up on it!

I have entertained myself with Netflix. I'm watching total trash, but it's ok...I like it. I'm catching up on the 1st season of the "Real Housewives of New Jersey" and I'm also watching "Dexter." I'm almost done with Season 1. I'm able to watch "Dexter" thru my Wii...interesting huhh? Oh technology these days.

Tomorrow I am leaving my barn for more than 5 minutes. I will be going to the Loc to make sure it hasn't fallen down and to clean the office because I'm sure it's a mess from the lack of my organizing. :) I may run another errand or 2, but we will see how I feel. I am going back to work on Wednesday...by then I simply can't sit around another day. These next 2 days should be good enough to get me back in working order. At least I hope...

So that my friends is the latest...isn't it exciting? I hope everyone is having a great Memorial Day weekend. Mine sure is relaxing even though I would rather be doing a million other things!

June is around the corner and we all know that is my favorite month...let the birthday countdown begin, but honestly, this June I'm beginning the end of cancer countdown!!

Till the next time...

Love, E

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Day 2...

Hello all, I can't think of a clever title, so Day 2 will have to do. Ha. Just wanted to check in and let you all know that I'm still alive and plugging along. This one hasn't been easy though.

I didn't feel good at all last night. I took an anti-nausea pill because I was queasy, didn't have much of an appetite but did eat a little and was just super weak. Everything was heavy and I just felt blah. I hit the hay about 10pm, read for a bit and woke up at 11:30pm thinking I had been sleeping for hours and it had only been an hour. Ugh. Back to sleep only to wake up at 1am, then 3:30am, then 5:30, 6:30 and then 7:30. I finally got up at 8. Ugh. I hate interrupted sleep. Damn Prednisone. I felt a bit better when I woke, but still tired and weak. I was able to get to my shot and back safely. I tried to take a nap after that but after laying in bed for 45 minutes and not falling asleep I gave up.

I was finally able to fall asleep on the couch for 45 minutes earlier this afternoon so that's good. The good news is my appetite is back and I'm not queasy anymore. I hope I can sleep better tonight, but house arrest has officially begun so I won't be going anywhere anytime soon unless I start to feel better. Rest is my mission!

I just watched the Suns lose in LA...what a heart breaker. My dogs are no where to be found because I scared them into the other room from screaming at the stupid Lakers. I can't stand them. I loved that Kobe threw up an air ball at the end only to get the worst player on the team for the night to get it back in the bucket at the buzzer....ahhhhh. Oh well, it's on Saturday! Let's go SUNS!

So that my friends is the latest from here. I will update as needed. I hope you all have a great, safe and fun Memorial Day weekend. I'll be living it up on my couch.

Take care...

Love you all-Erin :)

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Erin: 5, Cancer: A big fat goose egg....

That's right peeps, I just finished my 2nd to last treatment of this nightmare and it feels good. Well, I don't really feel that good right now, but it feels good to be that much closer to the finish line!!! I'm so happy. It brings tears to my eyes thinking about it. I think I will be an emotional wreck during my last treatment. Don't ask why, I don't even know why...I just have a feeling. Bittersweet I guess.

Dr. Nabong loved my bald head...in fact I think he really wanted to rub it, but he refrained. (I was wearing a hat today and had it off because my head was hot.) A quick little chat and I was off to the chemo room. Man was it packed today and man did I stick out like a sore thumb! I think everyone had to be at least twice my age...so very sad. There was a lady next to me getting chemo for the first time (I think I gave her a boost by telling her I have yet to be sick!), a lady that popped her IV out (oops) and another man by me that was given an injectable halfway thru his treatment that was going to make him go to the bathroom and sure enough, he was out of the chair within 5 minutes and off to the pot! Ha.

After treatment Mom, Dad and I went to Cindy's Cafe for lunch. We were all starved and it hit the spot. Home and straight to bed. I'm pretty pooped but can't sleep (I think it's the prednisone). I am super duper weak too. I was pretty wobbly earlier and probably still am, but I'm in my recliner resting so I wouldn't know. I am limiting my ventures out of the chair because I just don't feel like moving around! I have been weak during the past treatments, but not this weak right off the bat. Maybe I'll bounce back faster now!

I go for my shot tomorrow at 10am. I'm happy it's in the morning so I don't have to wait around all day to go get it. That way I can get back home and get back to resting.

My staycation has officially begun. Heidi and Frank are here to keep me company and family and friends are just a phone call away if I need some help!

Thank you all for your kind words and prayers. I'm almost done! June 16th at 11:30am is the final day...mark your calendars!!

I'll be back tomorrow to check in.

Love you all--Cancer Butt Kicker

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Thump-Thump....Thump-Thump

Oh it's a thumping alright. My heart is 100% normal according to Dr. Rizik. It's vigorously beating. That's what I like to hear. He could tell by looking at it for just a second. He said the only thing wrong with me is my Buckeye heritage. He's a Wolverine. Whatever!! My heart is beating so good because I'm not a Michigan fan. :)

I have no reason to suspect that I will encounter any more bumps in the road. In fact, I'm not really considering this a bump in the road because nothing came of it. My heart is fine, just as expected. Glad I know for sure though. I would like to call the last 2 weeks an intermission...a taste of what life will resume to SOON! I simply can't wait.

Tomorrow is Round 5. Bright and early at 9:45am is my meeting with Dr. Nabong. Treatment to follow. Looking forward to getting it over with.

I have had a great day so far...I even went to visit my friend Jason who's been in the hospital with colon cancer as well as liver cancer. Talk about a double whammie. Dow and I went to see him and although he's lost a few pounds, he looked pretty good. He was just about to get his first round of chemo. I feel really good that I went to see him because I feel like I gave him a big boost of confidence. It's my first time "helping" someone. It felt good. I get vibes from people and I have a feeling Jason will come out of this fine.

Weird thing is he's on the same floor as the bone marrow transplant people. I saw Jane, the lady whom I've been talking to, and we had a nice chat. Still don't know about this transplant yet, but all in due time.

The best part of the day was the Suns just won. It's like a new series now. Back to LA with the series all tied up. WOO HOO! Thank you to Mary (my card angel) for sending me the delicious Edible Arrangement of fruit. I haven't had fruit in 4 months because of the sugar content (although it's natural sugar, I've refrained). Fruit has never tasted so good. I believe it was good luck. Thank you so much, I ate half of the fruit in one sitting...ha. So good.

So, I will give you all an update tomorrow on how I'm feeling after Round 5, but I have a good feeling I will come out of feeling great. I think the extra 2 weeks helped.

Till tomorrow my friends! Purple Power!!!

Love you all--E

Friday, May 21, 2010

It's Official...100 today!

I told you all I would report when it hit 100 and today's the day! I think it's the only day this week that it will be 100. We are getting a cold front on Sunday-Tuesday with highs in the low 80's. Our weather here is so weird.

Speaking of weird, this week has been plain weird. That's the best way I can describe it. I've had weird dreams, weird things happening around the house and weird people at work. Is it the moon? It's also been a sad week. I found out 2 other people that I know have the C word. One to remain anonymous, but Stage 2 breast cancer and another is an old friend of mine from the Gonzo days, Jason. He was diagnosed with terminal colon cancer. He's 29 years old. I still don't know many details on his situation, but terrible nonetheless. I certainly know how each of these people feel, but I couldn't imagine what it would be like for my doctor's to tell me I was going to die. Breaks my heart. Please keep these 2 in your prayers as well. I know they work. As my friend Trisha said, I will be sprinkling my Tinkerbell cancer fighting fairy dust on these two for sure! :)

I got my meeting with the cardiologist scheduled for Tuesday at 1pm. Nothing like waiting till the day before I get treatment to get this done, but such is life. He's a busy guy looking at people's tickers. I have a consultation first and then I'm hoping I get the echocardiogram done that day as well. I guess I will find out Tuesday!

Other than that I am doing just great. I have good energy, my body is holding up great from working and I still forget I have cancer every now and then!

So until the next time I hope everyone has a fun, safe weekend. :)

Love, Erin

Monday, May 17, 2010

Is that Erin?

Hello all! I thought I would ding in and say hello even though I don't have any updates as far as the cancer world goes. I still feel amazingly great and really am happy to have these extra 2 weeks of feeling great. I should still be recuperating from Round 5 about now, but nope, I got a hall pass. Hee hee.

Work has been going good. My strength is holding up. I was extremely tired on Friday for some reason, but after sleeping for 11 hours that night I bounced right back and felt like a new person.

The Suns started another round of the playoffs versus the Fakers...I mean Lakers. I hate this team too. And I hate that we both share the color purple. Boo on that. If you didn't know, we lost tonight, but that's ok, there are still 6 more games to go.

The funny thing about tonight was I went to Loco to watch the game. I brought Heidi and Frank for the adventure and they had a blast. They are 2 worn out exhausted pups though. I mean their social life is quite hectic (that was sarcasm). I wore my wig to the Loc for the first time. I have never worn it there. I mean my wig is pretty darn close to my "old" hair before I got it cut and then lost it. It may be a smidge darker, but still, it's pretty similar. I swear nobody recognized me. It was hilarious. Funny that people didn't recognize me because I had hair. Who would have thunk? People were doing double takes and then were like, "Oh, I totally didn't recognize you!?" Weird, huhh? I mean I'm normal with hair right? I guess people have just gotten used to seeing me without hair and sporting a bandana. Goes to show you how quickly things become the norm.

I still haven't gotten my echocardiam scheduled yet, but hopefully it will here soon. If I haven't heard by Wednesday I will give them a call myself. There's only a week left before I see my Doc again so I gotta get it done soon!

So that's the latest from me. I hope you all are doing well. Still no 100 degree temp here yet, but I see it forcasted on Thursday so we will see if the weathermen are right!! Take care everyone...

Love you all--Erin

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

I'll take a small bump...

Instead of a pothole later in life...

Hi folks! I'm writing early today only because I posted a message on Facebook saying read my blog for further details. Well, I didn't get my Round 5 today. It's being pushed back 2 weeks. Why?

Well, it could be nothing, but it's more of a rather be safe than sorry type thing. My MUGA scan I had 2 weeks ago of my heart showed my LVEF level has dropped quite significantly. Let me explain all of this in English. LVEF= Left ventricle ejection fraction. It's the fraction of blood pumped out of the ventricles which each heart beat. The left ventricle is an excellent measure of overall cardiac function. So...for me this means what? BEFORE chemo started I had a MUGA scan. My LVEF level was 74. After my 4th treatment and just 2 weeks ago my LVEF level is 53. For a person my age it should be at least 55. There's the red flag. And for it to drop that much in about 10 weeks probably isn't a good thing.

Don't freak out yet. This could mean nothing. It could have been they did my scan too early. I am not sure if there is a too early but since I had that MUGA scan 6 days after my treatment my blood levels could have affected the scan. Who knows. BUT we would rather be safe than sorry right? I mean my heart is my life. Not something I want to take a chance with.

What's next? They are working on setting me up with a cardiologist...soon. My Mom has requested we go see her Doctor...Dr. Rizik....he's one of the top 5 in Arizona. So, my Mom has already called that office to give them a heads up. I would assume I would hear something by the end of week (at least I hope). I will get an echocardiogram of my heart to see a more in depth look at it. They want to see how the walls of my heart are doing. So, more waiting.

The positive of this is I have 2 more weeks to feel GREAT. I have 2 more weeks to get my blood counts even better than they are so when I do get Round 5 I may have a better response to it because I've had more time in-between rounds.

The negative is I have all this time off this week. Well, I already picked up a shift tomorrow and I will steal my bar shift back on Saturday, but other than that I guess I'll just rest. My Doc said it's OK to work so that's good. And, being almost done with chemo is being delayed...but hey, that's ok.

I was talking with Lyda on the phone last night and she asked me if I was ready for today and how I was feeling. I told her I had a bad feeling, but I didn't know about what. My Dad said he hit every red light on the way to my house. We went to Cindy's Cafe for lunch and my Dad's favorite meal (the broasted chicken) wasn't being served for another hour and then my Mom commented in the waiting room of Ironwood that I have been so lucky that I haven't had any bumps. I think she jinxed me. Hee hee. Hey, it is what it is. I'm ok with it.

So that's all I know for now. I will keep you all posted when I know more!! Thanks for you kind words...

Love, Erin

Monday, May 10, 2010

Round 5 Coming Up!

Hello all, sorry I haven't written in quite a few days, but honestly there hasn't been too much to write about! I still feel amazingly fantastic. Great, just in time to get kicked down again. But hey, this is the 2nd to last time this will happen and for that, I'm happy! You seriously have no idea how ready I am for this all to be over.

I wrote last on cinco de drinko. I have been a pretty busy girl since then with work and social activities. Yes, I have been social and over the weekend I tried to stay away from my house as much as possible since I will see it's confines far too much here starting Wednesday. My friend from high school had her wedding reception on Saturday night so I went to that with my parents and it was lots of fun. It was nice to see some of my friends and their parents, etc. Then, Sunday was Mother's Day. I spent the entire day with my family and we had so much fun. I think Mom had a great day as well! I mean just spending time with all of us is a gift in itself.

We started off the day by going to a yummy brunch. Too bad I couldn't partake in the champagne/mimosa drinking so instead I was the DD. HA. Afterwards we all went back to my parents house and Mom opened gifts. She was pretty spoiled this year, but she is SOOOO worth it. She got an iPad from my brother and Dad and I gave her the pictures and slide show from my professional photo shoot that my friend Stacy did. I will post the pics here at the end of this blog so you can see them and I hope to get the slide show up here as well, but I'm not having luck with that so far. Of course more tears were flowing when I showed her it. It's just so touching. I feel so strange crying looking at myself, but then again I think it's tears of proudness. I really am proud of myself and seeing myself re-iterates it. Make sense? Maybe not...maybe I am a weirdo for crying at myself. Ha.

So, that has been it over the last couple days. Tomorrow is "prep" day for my upcoming "staycation" here in Mesa. I need to run a few errands, get the dogs groomed, get my blood drawn and stock up on food for the next week or so.

I'm looking forward to getting #5 out of the way because then I will have just ONE last treatment. WOO HOO! That's reason to celebrate there.

I will check back in on Wednesday night to let you all know how I'm doing...until then, enjoy my pictures! :)

Love, E






















Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Ole!

Happy Cinco de Mayo everyone! It was a busy day for me seeing as the Loc is a Mexican restaurant! It was a good day though, everything went smoothly during the daytime, the day went by quickly and I didn't have to be there when the real madness begins, tonight.

I'm still feeling really good. I think this is the best I have felt since this whole nightmare began, 3 months ago. Yes, yesterday was my 3 month anniversary, if you want to call it an anniversary. I don't think there is much to celebrate...well I take that back, yes there is. I can celebrate everyday how much cancer butt I'm kicking. Yippee. :)

I had a good day off yesterday. I ran some errands, went to lunch with Mom and her friend from high school Pat and then did some more yard work with my personal gardener Gary. I think he probably regrets offering to do my yard work. Hee hee. It really does look much better here so I'm thrilled. I think that's all that matters. He will be back in the morning to finish up.

The Suns are lookin' mighty good. In fact they are seconds away from going up 2-0 against the Spurs. We hate the Spurs so this is FANTASTIC!

One week till Round 5. I am soooo ready for this to be over with. You really have no idea. Time seems to be dragging too. Not cool at all.

The dog days of summer are starting to hit. We almost got to 100 today. Don't worry I will make sure to post when we have our first 100 degree day.

So, till the next time! Hope you all had your fix of frijoles and margaritas today...I had one, not the other. Wish it was the latter. Ole!

Love you all--E

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Happy May!

Hello all! Just wanted to check in and inform you all that I'm feeling pretty darn good still! It was great to be back at work and to feel normal again.

Today my cousin Gary came over and helped me with yard work. We started in the front and didn't even finish the front. My bins were full and my hedger stopped working (it was tired too). It was a good thing there was no where else to put the cut stuff because my body was telling me to stop anyways. It's still a bit frustrating to me that I tire out so easily, but I am starting to get used to it. I really can't wait to get my energy back full force!!

Gary will be back to continue being such a great gardener!! Thank you Gary! :)

This week is another full normal week. Cinco de Mayo is on Wednesday so it will be a crazy one at the Loc. I'm looking forward to it because after Cinco the dog days of summer start to sink in. Boo. I think our "cool" weather is over too. I'm excited for pool time though. I wonder what it will feel like to go swimming without hair! Ha.

I also went out today to the Vig in Phoenix. It's a fun little place, has a great patio with live music and they have good food too! It was nice to get out of the house, hang out with great people and people watch. I love to people watch. Hey, anything was better than sitting here at home all day!

So, that my friends is the latest. I hope everyone is having a great start to their month. For me, it's another month closer to the finish line. Yippee!

Till the next time.

Love you all--E