Hello all! Wow, I am horrible at this and I really don't want to be! I didn't even make ONE post in October. Whoops! I apologize for that. There is lots that I can inform you on, I guess I just have been lazy. Or maybe just busy living life. I think I like the latter better. :)
You do realize that no news is good news and I usually will write in here when I find out something. It helps me process the news. I can't remember if I ever mentioned this, although I think I did, but just a bit after I was diagnosed my doctor's got another patient who was very similar to me. Similar age, female and the same type of cancer. She went through the whole protocol, bone marrow transplant and everything. Well, I guess she still wasn't responding well after the BMT and I remember Scott telling me after the fact that I truly was lucky because I went down one path and she went down the complete opposite. She wasn't doing well at all. Just yesterday I spoke with Scott and he told me she had passed. Wow. It really put things into perspective for me. I mean that could have been me! I truly believe there is a master plan for everything. I truly believe I am so incredible blessed and lucky to be here. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. I knew all this before, but after hearing this news and really thinking about it, it actually kind of scares me.
Then, I hear that Ethan Zohn's (ex-Survivor player and Amazing Race player) cancer has come back!! Really? Geez, It should be a rule that if you have dealt with it once it should NEVER COME BACK!! It's not fair. But then again, there are a LOT of things that aren't fair. We won't go there. He was in remission for 20 months. Now this scares me. He had/has Hodgkin's Lymphoma....pretty similar to mine. He will now undergo a 2nd BMT (now using stem cells from one of his brothers) and he's currently undergoing chemotherapy AGAIN. I mean I really can't imagine myself going through what I went through last year again but I do know it is reality and it could happen. I'm just now witnessing it. The guy is a warrior though...he just ran a marathon while he's undergoing chemotherapy. Take that cancer.
Bottom line is cancer has no mercy, it has no rules. It will do whatever it wants to whomever it wants. I just will continue to live my life so very thankful and fortunate that I am here another day and will continue to pray I never have to deal with it again. I believe that's the best and only thing I can do!
So sorry to report such saddening news, but it's reality. Hopefully you all will appreciate your life even more than you already do and live it to the fullest. Life is too short!
Till the next time, and I promise it won't be long...