Sunday, January 26, 2014

A week of firsts...

Hello all!  So far I am already doing better writing in my blog.  I have a few topics that I'd like to discuss in future posts too, but for now I'd just like to reflect on the past week I had.  It was ah-ma-zing.  I had a week of firsts.  Well, 2 first.  2 big first in my life.  The first was all the hard work I have put in, the miles I have ran (122+ to be exact) since October and the pain my body has been through was put to the test one week ago at the PF Chang's 1/2 marathon.  I can now proudly call myself a half marathoner.  I DID IT!  I made it to the finish line.  Did I doubt that I could do it?  Heck no.  I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I also knew if I put my mind to it, I could make it happen and it sure did.  The last 3 miles were pretty painful, but all that pain was soon forgotten when I crossed that finish line and got my heavy metal of accomplishment.  I still can't believe I really did a 1/2 marathon.  Thank you to everyone who donated.  Our team raised over $11,000 for Phoenix Children's Hospital.  Your generosity not only made me finish the race but it will save a childs life, somthank you. Now I am left with such an overwhelming sense of accomplishment, 2 blisters, a bloody toe and now a toenail falling off (sorry for the gruesome details).  I have also never been as sore as I have been in my entire life, but once again all the pain was a sign of an accomplishment.  Now what's next you ask?  A full marathon?  I think I need some new shoes first....

I also put my mind to something else as I started the new year.  If I want something bad enough and I put my mind to it, it will come.  I realized this week my mind is finally cooperating with me!  I got my first B in HUBI (on a major test!)!  I know that doesn't sound super exciting because I'm sure you (like me) are hoping I get A's but if you have read any of my previous posts, med school ain't easy.  And, it's a testament to myself that I am even "good" at school again!  I am just relieved and happy that the adjustments I have made are paying off.  So far so good and I am going to stick with my new routine.  Some powerful messages from classmates have been emailed/posted tonight about our reason for being where we are now.  I know without a doubt that I am where I supposed to be.  I know without a doubt I am supposed to be a doctor.  Of course I have some moments of doubt, but when I come back to reality and really think about my purpose and reason for doing so, it is exactly where I am supposed to be.

As the week concludes I hope to continue this "high" into this week and weeks to come.  I am excited to get back into the gym this week and do something else other than running!  So, as we start this new week just remember to relax, enjoy life and don't sweat the small stuff.   I'll leave you with a quote I posted on Instagram earlier this week that I truly believe in.  "If you are depressed, you are living in the past.  If you are anxious you are living in the future.  If you are at peace you are living in the present."

Till the next time...

Love, Erin

PS:  Here are some pictures and a song from PINK that I LOVE.  It just seemed fitting for this post.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

A New Year, A New Quarter...

Oh my I am horrible at writing in my blog.  Maybe I can do better in 2014?  I really do enjoy it and when I write in it I always feel better, so why don't I do it more often?!  Who knows...I suppose my excuse could be my new medical school life.  So how's it going you ask?  GREAT!  I passed my first Quarter of HUBI (Human Biology) with flying colors and I got an A and a B in my other classes.   I have to admit I was a little stressed out, ok maybe a lot stressed out.  It.ain't.easy.  I have never studied so much in my life and yet I still felt like I didn't know everything at the level I needed it.  There is just so much information!   Studying for finals was intense.  Full 12-16 hour days of studying with few, small breaks.  By the time I was into the 2nd half of the 6 hour final my brain was ready to explode.  I was so happy it was over with.  Then, the waiting game began.  We waited 8 days for our grade.  EIGHT!  That was EIGHT days into my break that I couldn't fully relax because I wasn't sure of my score.  Silly me though, I had nothing to worry about.  Whew.  I haven't done a happy dance around my house like an idiot since I beat cancer, but the day after Christmas I was dancing around here like a fool.  Frank and Heidi thought I was crazy, but I didn't care, I PASSED QUARTER 1!!!

So now what?  Well, I just enjoyed a glorious 18 days off.  I worked 2 catering jobs, slept, went to a Sun's game, slept, celebrated a few times, attended ASU graduation, spent lots of time with family, hung out with friends, slept, relaxed, played lots of games and slept.  Yes, I slept...A LOT.  Upperclassmen told us we would sleep a lot and I didn't believe them because I was proud of the fact that I was able to get at least 8 hours of sleep almost every night during the quarter.  I didn't think I would be tired.  But man was I wrong.  It took me 4 days to finally feel human again I was that tired.  I would sleep at least 10 hours a night and still feel groggy and lazy.  Goes to show you how much of an effect all that studying with a side of stress does to your body!  The quarter was so busy I didn't even decorate one bit for Christmas!  I know now if I don't do it over Thanksgiving break I won't get it done.  So I decided that if I didn't decorate I wasn't going to send out New Year's my friends and family I apologize that you will not get the yearly photo of me with the pups.

Quarter 2 begins tomorrow.  I am no longer the new kid on the block.  There are about 30 new kids coming in as Q1's that will eventually meet up with us Q4.  It feels so great to move on.  I am so excited to get back at it tomorrow and to have a clean slate.  I know now what to do to succeed Q2.  I am so much more organized and more than anything I know what to expect.  I wasted a lot of time last quarter doing things I didn't need to do because they were already done for me.  I was unorganized in the beginning and tried different ways to take notes.  Now that I know what works for me I feel like I am ahead of the game and I'm ready to punch HUBI in the face again!  I can do it!!

Aside from enjoying my glorious break I am 2 weeks away from running my first 1/2 marathon.  I still think I'm crazy for doing it because I really hate running.  I thought maybe once I kept doing it I'd like it, and I do kinda, but still I would rather take a spin class or lift weights.  This running for 2 hours at a time is ridiculously boring.  I couldn't imagine training for a full marathon or even those crazy athletes that do Ironman's.  Geez.  I ran for 2 hours today and I feel paralyzed from the waist down.  It hurts...why do I put myself through it?  I guess to show myself I can, just like everything else I embark on in my life.  Another thing I can cross off my list and pat myself on the back for.    Oh, it's not too late to donate to the sick kids at Phoenix Children's Hospital.  Any amount helps, so if you'd like, feel free to donate!  Thank you!!


My batteries are recharged, my brain has rested, I have a new outlook and I'm more optimistic.  Quarter 2 I am ready for you!  Bring it!!

Chat with you all later--I hope it won't be as long.  :)

Love, Erin

Here are some pictures of some medical school friends and some fun over break...